| 17 January 2006 |
| an end to all this |
As of yesterday afternoon, I have become officially depressed. Seriously, I am starting to wonder if there's a point in all this; sort of like the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. I'm starting to decipher whether the world has become harsh or if I'm just not capable of comprehending what it has to say.
I am at the door of a torture chamber right now. One that skipped the physical and just went head-on with the emotional and mental. My mind is reeling with to do's, not to do's and to give's (although you can forget the last cos that's just a spill from law class). Coffee has become my anti-depressant; moving its way through my veins just like blood.
I just realized that there is an unfathoming distance between deciding to do something and the actuality of doing it. I now affirm the saying that the first step is indeed the hardest to make.
I learned that it is possible for groupmates to be friends. Furthermore, I am convinced that each can bring out the best in the other for as long as each one keeps an open mind. Also, it is possible for girlfriends to be understanding of their boyfriends, save for one.*knowing smile*
It's weird to start an entry with frownlines creasing your forehead and your mood so low; then suddenly catch the corners of your lips curled upright and feel as though your eyes are smiling.
The second half of this month and the next month will basically determine my future. I am not joking nor overreacting. Maybe, panicking a little. So here's wishing that everything will turn out great, not just for me but for every, every all.=)
P.S.
:: Citibank is currently looking for a CitiService Officer who will serve as a Customer Service Representative for Financial Institutions. Interested parties can just leave a message in the chatterbox. Fresh graduates are welcome to apply.:) |
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| 07 January 2006 |
| birthday, birthday! |
HaPpY,
hApPy
BiRtHdAy,
Joana!!!:)
I've known you since Grade Two and we've seen each other in more ways than one. Heterosexually, that is. Haha!
We've dreamed the same things but only you ended up doing them. I might have chickened out a little, but I guess it's more of God's will for me to divert.
I miss you and I wish all the best for you!
P.S. You look good in your uniform. Really.
*Mwah!* |
| posted by zelina @ 1:02 PM |
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| (belated) birthday, birthday! |
Since this greeting is a couple days late and your my first friend to turn bente this year, I have nothing but this:
Happy 20th Birthday, Chard!
 >moo!< P.S. Ang pikon ay laging pangit! *smile* |
| posted by zelina @ 12:55 PM |
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| 05 January 2006 |
| bandwagon |
In the spirit of all that's good and new, I'd pretty much join the bandwagon and post up my resolution(s) for this year. Make that my FIRST resolution cos I haven't really done the year-starter since God-knows-when.
:: WATCH WHAT I EAT. Since my family has a close relationship with heart disease and diabetes, this is more of a NEED to me than a TO-DO. I have had my share of (un)memorable what-nots, enough to make my friends threaten me to go have myself checked. And I digress. So I will take my supposed diet seriously. That means no beef, pork, and a lot of other stuff you wouldn't really care to know. Also, this will serve as a semi-preparation for what Agatha said, "Zel, when you reach 40, you'll only be eating oatmeal." Jussst joking! I think I'd rather die than do that.
:: EXERCISE. Save for my PE this semester, which only happens for an hour and a half for twice a week, I have no physical activity at all. I don't know why but I seem to be doing my stretches less and less often. Katamaran is the lone idiot to blame here. So this particular idiot will be kicked in the ass for the rest of the year, hopefully. As inspiration, I heard a couple of my blockmates will be jogging every day starting Monday. Cheers to their newfound passion!:)
:: STOP PROCRASTINATING. I think this particular resolution should extend to everybody as well. Hee hee.
:: MAKE USE OF MY NEWLY REDEEMED STARBUCKS PLANNER. Speaking of which, I think this time of the year is making people planner-happy. I suh-wear I saw a lot of my blockmates scribble their stuvs in their planners, whether they're straight-from-National-Bookstore or make-shift ones. Plus, this planning thingy will be the key to downplay my paranoia, which will make the lives of the people around me waaaaay easier.
:: THINK 657,425,485 TIMES BEFORE BUYING ANYTHING (AND NOT AFTER). After the I-don't-plan-to-estimate pesos sales I've given Starbucks this December, I guess I would have to start thinking more prior to every purchase. Also, I'm not going to set a target per week cos I know I would be bargaining to lower it anyway. Magic word this year is, "SAVE, SAVE, SAVE!"
:: SMILE. I don't know why but this seems to be the most important of all. Hee hee. |
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